Agenda’s are fluttering by. they permeate the air. Strong ego’s compete and hard work is not enough. There is a sense of urgency to make solid work and make good work and only a few people can hit the goal and the rest of the peeps are fodder. Warm bodies. People at their desks, patiently waiting to make something they can’t make. Hoping they can just become something with no work, no practice. Magic pof. Now u know how to make things happen. You should feel entitled. Yeah, um well, no.
When does working hard not make you feel good. When is dedication not enough? How can one discern when individuals let their personal agendas overshadow a group collective? Questions upon question unfolds as I am disappointed in a collective of creative and agency types producing sub par work and many people being unskilled and kicking out work that is not going far enough or not done well, or not on the mark.
I have been producing write ups, reviews, process documents and continue production executions… and i am unhappy with how my time is consumed. How often corrections to work needs to be made and how a deeper understanding just seems to be lacking in many of the soldiers. I am meditating on these thoughts and resolving to produce a scenario that will lead to a state of being and mind that affords me a quality of life where i have a life i am happy with and able to produce work and artwork that i am regularly proud of.. and mentor people wanting to learn and ready to show their skills and collaboration and mentorship ensure with a satisfaction that makes the hard times more than just a hard time. More will come on theses thoughts as I refine them further.